Belonging

Late Sunday afternoon, one of my favorite customers popped into the bookstore to grab a book she’d put on hold. She’s one of those people who radiates down-to-earth, good energy. She’s a joy to be around. In fact, when I’m around her, I feel like I belong. That’s a pretty radical, earth-shifting gift: to makeContinue reading “Belonging”

Back Together Again

Breaking up and getting back together—all within a 48-hour span—well, it’s not for the faint of heart. When Simon & I woke up the next morning, it was like being on an incredibly awkward first date. In my pajamas. With someone I’d known for over a decade. I had no idea what to do orContinue reading “Back Together Again”

Revelations

After the yelling, the tears, the panicked confusion, I was left with only the stark reality: Simon & I were unraveling. This family I’d poured my heart and soul into was disintegrating—and I couldn’t do or say anything to stop it. I was in a whirlwind of rage and pain by the time my bestContinue reading “Revelations”

But It’s Not Over Over. Right?

Callie & Arizona broke up. And this set into motion the epic meltdown of 2016. But, I guess you’ll need a little more background than that: Simon & I watched Grey’s Anatomy voraciously last Fall. We’d dissect the characters’ (often baffling) life choices and analyze their relationship dilemmas. This gave us a safe way toContinue reading “But It’s Not Over Over. Right?”

When Simon transitioned, I wanted to place all our relationship difficulties squarely on his shoulders. HE had changed the terms & conditions of our relationship. HE wasn’t the same person anymore (in a way more literal sense than folks usually mean this). It was his fault that we couldn’t connect the same way. Except… IContinue reading

Flux

Life is constant flux. Knowing is transitory. Grasping destroys even the most beautiful things. When Simon transitioned, I knew—knew down in my bones—that this would be better. For him. For our family. For Jane. But that knowing clashed against my belief about who I was—defined largely by being a lesbian. I couldn’t conceptualize how IContinue reading “Flux”