Contradictions

It’s absolutely stunning in Atlanta today. The sun is glorious. Everything is blooming in an explosion of color. It is as perfect a spring day as I can conjure. Days like make it seem like anything is possible, probable even. Like the cosmos have aligned to heap blessings upon me. Then, I watched a hearseContinue reading “Contradictions”

Dream Big (or even at all will do)

One of the greatest joys of being sober is doing shit you never even dreamed of… I didn’t have such a great imagination when I was drinking. Sure, I could sit on a barstool & tell you I was going to run a marathon the year I turned 30 (even though I’d never run moreContinue reading “Dream Big (or even at all will do)”

Belonging

Late Sunday afternoon, one of my favorite customers popped into the bookstore to grab a book she’d put on hold. She’s one of those people who radiates down-to-earth, good energy. She’s a joy to be around. In fact, when I’m around her, I feel like I belong. That’s a pretty radical, earth-shifting gift: to makeContinue reading “Belonging”

Her Timing is Always a Mystery

Parenting is largely intuitive. Right? Or am I doing it wrong? Because this really feels, for the most part, like a fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants endeavor. It’s not so much the “where do babies come from?” conversations… those big ones are expected. You kind of get to plan for those. And, honestly, for us that one was easy…Continue reading “Her Timing is Always a Mystery”

Beginnings (Happy 2021!)

Beginnings. They’re so full of possibility. None of those bothersome details to work out. No negative feelings or pesky loose ends that tend to crop up when things get real. Beginnings are all magic. When I hung around AA, they were fond of saying “wherever you go, there you are.” It’s been true for me.Continue reading “Beginnings (Happy 2021!)”

Chaos

In case y’all are keeping tabs on my progression through the pandemic phases, we’ve now reached the “I-Want-to-Create-Full-Blown-Chaos” stage. Perhaps y’all are unfamiliar with that stage. It’s the one where you up and quit your job or buy a new house/boat/car or get a puppy or cut bangs. You know, something that adds flair andContinue reading “Chaos”

Inner Voices are Bananas

Folks used to say AA would completely ruin drinking for you. Obvi, right? But here’s a truth you have to understand before that statement can make one iota of sense to you: addiction is based on lies. In active addiction, you lie to yourself. To other people. To the Universe. And the lie that keepsContinue reading “Inner Voices are Bananas”

Meandering Spirituality

I’ve spent most of my life trying to think things to death. Maybe it’s because I’m a Virgo. Or because I’m a 1 on the Enneagram. But most likely, it’s because thinking is not doing. Doing has consequences–real, tangible things that are set in motion by my actions. Thinking… well, I’m not going to makeContinue reading “Meandering Spirituality”

I’m Not Anxious. You’re Anxious.

I woke up on Monday so anxious that my arms were numb. When I relayed this information to Simon later, he thought I was pretty nonchalant about what he was convinced may have been a fatal malady. But this is not my first rodeo. I know precisely how my anxiety manifests. And the cold, lackContinue reading “I’m Not Anxious. You’re Anxious.”

Normal-Shmormal

Meeting with a new therapist is a bit like going on a first date–exciting, full of potential but hella unnerving. I’ve always been hell-bent on impressing my therapists with my great insight and wisdom. Which can make for an awkward therapist first-date. Typically, I wait until I’m dangling on the precipice of a dramatic, jaggedContinue reading “Normal-Shmormal”